Dreams surprise us

Dreamt that I was fatally attractive to mother-in-laws... that is, a lot of women wanted me to be their son's wife. Most of these women were rich and their sons were my age, dependent, soft-willed, focused on the pleasures of food and comfort, and didn't care more or less about me. To my surprise, though I was against the idea of becoming the bride to any one of them, I found myself first engaged to one, then also engaged to another, so I was at once the future daughter-in-law of two prestigious families. Then one of my future mother-in-laws (who was a small, sickly, hardworking and sweet tempered woman who I really like and didn't want to hurt for fear she'd get a stroke or some equally dire condition) asked me to take care of her son after she died. I then told her, regrettably, that :"I'm sorry, I don't really care for your son - he doesn't seem to much care for me either. If I have to marry him, without any love between us, I'm sure I would leave him sooner or later, so I don't think it's such a good idea to maintain this engagement any longer." It seemed, actually, that I didn't have much of a choice - I had to ask the woman to let me off because I wasn't allowed to cancel the engagement myself. Thankfully, she was kind. The other future mother-in-law was more difficult to deal with and it took some shouting and elusive maneuvers on my part to shake her off. Thankfully (or not so thankfully), a war seemed to be going on at the time, and in the chaos all agreements concerning this came to a halt.
Eventually, I found myself in a busy market and public order was in tatters. Since it was unsafe to be about, the only non-repulsive member of my suitors (who happened to be one of my schoolmates at my current high school in real-life who is a marvelous pianist and whom I consider a friend) sent two of his his buddies to escort me so I would be safe. One of them asked me why I didn't accept when Yuan (that is my friend's name)'s family sent people to propose a marriage (I believed that his mother had sent that entourage and refused because it would be extremely awkward - seeing as we're merely friends)
I replied "He never asked me(himself)."
"He was pursuing you."
"If he was, I didn't know." I said "I don't believe he loves me in that way."
Suddenly before me was a river with cement blocks set in it. Some of the blocks were barely above the water, while others were several feet above water. I pointed to the almost submerged blocks and said "I would rather live in insecurity and possibly a short life with one who loves me than (pointing to a block higher up) live in security with one who doesn't love me."
I think this is the result of me hearing about the story of the marriage of Princess Diana. My roommate Deoborah was doing a report on her and told me about her story. In girl's comic books there are always plots about how people who are brought together by force, especially when a girl enters a family way above her status, they eventually find happiness...It's very misleading to young girls and I believe the belief in such tales may make girls more vulnerable - to possessive or manipulative men.